Sunday, May 25, 2008

David Anderson, 1937-2008

It has been nearly a week since my father passed away so unexpectedly. I find it hard to know the words to express the depth of my grief, but also the depth of my gratitude for him. He was a magnificent man who lived every day with purpose and verve and strength and enthusiasm. I have learned from him and I have leaned on him. I have talked with him and cried with him and laughed with him. I have hiked with him and biked with him. I am proud he is my father and I hope he is proud to call me his daughter.

I will forever be grateful that we decided to drop in on Mom and Dad last Sunday. I will never forget our last conversation and the last time I hugged and kissed him. I hope and pray that Jane and Mitchell will keep some small memories of him and I wish so much that Luke would have been able to grow up to know his Grandpa Dave. As it is, I'm brought to tears thinking about tomorrow when we next enter my parents home and Luke wanders around calling for his grandpa, who he loves, as he always does.

The past week was a wonderful time to be with my mother and my brothers and sisters...but there was such a profound void. How we all ached to hear his booming voice and be in his huge presence that could fill a room.

But we experienced peace and I know he would have loved the service at the Air Force Academy where he now rests. The full military honors, the bagpiper, even the hummingbird that hovered right by us and stared directly at my mom the entire time she spoke...then flew away.

I think it may take a while before my "poetry" comes back. But it will.

10 comments:

Brooke said...

These pictures turned out amazing! Jed, Brooke, Gabe and I agree that you have a true talent at blogging! We love you so much. Talk to you soon.

Robin said...

Great Pictures!

Breezy said...

I am so sorry for your loss. He sounds like an incredible man.

Em said...

My heart broke when I read your blog. I am so sorry for your loss. He must have been a wonderful father to have raised such an amazing daughter. Our thoughts and prayers are with you during this time.

megan said...

So, I finally get your blog address right and now what do you do? Make me cry. So, so beautiful. I eagerly await the return of your rhymes, but love your prose too... (just like Steinbeck!)And...still crying

brenda said...

I'm with Megan - can't stop crying. Your dad is a man i wish i could have had the honor to meet. i'm so glad the hike didn't work out as planned and instead you were able to go see him. Luke may not remember your dad as he grows up, but he will live his life hearing stories about an amazing man, his grandpa, David Anderson.
i'm not worried about your rhymes -they'll find their way out again. love you-

Jim said...

Carrie I am so sorry for your loss! I dread the day that one of my parents passes on. What a void you must feel!

Anonymous said...

Just heard about your Dad today. Truly, truly sorry. Your Mom and Dad were so cute and excited for their Provo adventures. Lost my Dad 1 year ago. There are some things that we aren't meant "to get over". Hold your dad moments close to your heart -- miss my "carrie fix". hugs

Robin said...

Fun pictures of the Vail adventure - snotty noses and slobbery kisses are one of the treasures of motherhood- thanks for the truly beautiful expression of love for daddy. I love you M

Robin said...

I did it!! M